1/09/2006

Day 9

The only problem I've been having since giving up my addiction has been waking up at 3 a.m. and when I say waking up, I mean it is as if my toe was stuck in the electrical outlet. Bam! No snoozing. And the dreams are what I'd call electric as well.

Last night for example, I found myself traveling the 6 train which gets detoured to Cleveland where there is a marching band that I am enlisted in. I keep telling everyone that I don't belong in Cleveland - and that I didn't know the #6 train went to Cleveland and everyone that is in Cleveland is dressing me in this high-school uniform and I find myself carrying a marching band tuba.

In other words, bam! and boom! Ump Pah. Ump Pah. The parade moves down a wide boulevard where old women are throwing flowers at us as if we are on our way off to war. And I'm puzzled by this until I look ahead and see that the band is going onto a troop ship marked: Middle East Tour of Duty.

I ditch the tuba, and scramble to the sidelines but I'm picked up by the police for illegal disposing of government property (the tuba) and taken to a holding cell in the Cleveland City Hall.

The mayor, a fat little man with an accordian case strapped to his back sits down on the other side of the bars and plays polkas for me, all the while explaining that I'm in deep trouble and that I am being accused of hijacking the #6 local.

Idiotic, I telll him. You can't hijack a subway.

True, he replies. It hasn't been done before - but that's no reason that I can't be the first. And besides, he grins - we've got the pictures to prove it.

He then continues playing a squeeky rendition of Roll Out the Barrel.

Bam. Awake. I try to fall back asleep to see what is going to happen next, but no luck.

1/08/2006

Man on Crutches


I'm beginning to put together my other gallery which I'm going to call, The Forgotten. No, maybe not The Forgotten, maybe The Unwanted. No, maybe not The Unwanted, maybe The Unsellable. The shots that just give you no hope. No feeling of wanting to get up in the morning. Shots that may be good to view after you've made it and don't feel to close to our own vulnerability. Not struck down by terrorists - but hit by the nature of being human. This particular shot is part of my ongoing project to save some of my old Delta 400 negatives which are just about all purple now.

Day 8

I'm going to have a big celebration, having made it through a week without smokes. You're all invited to my fantasy party. It will start off with having a large table installed in front of my apartment building with a canopy. Bring your own heaters.

I am offering boiled elk meat, and fried grouse and broiled East River fish (not sure what they're called anymore because of the genetic mutations).

But don't come for the food alone. There will be good talk as well. My friend John the Walker will be there for sure. He wants to ask you to buy him CDs for the next holiday. Always knows the next holiday - in this case G.Washington's birthday. Don't get too close to John as he spits a little when he talks.

And there will be Geraldine the Dog Walker. She is a lovely girl - but has taken to barking lately.

I have asked my super Gino if he'd make a toast. He said he would which means that he'll never show up.

All-in-all a good time should be had by all (at least by all who don't show up).

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On the shooting front, hard to believe but for the first time in a long time I ventured out and had a good time shooting around 59th street. The desire and the excitement of it are slowly returning. I'm thinking that I need a 35mm (focal length) lens and am starting to look at the Cosina Voigtlanders again. I've been very happy with the 28 f1.9; wasn't crazy about the 40mm Nokton; and in the 35mm range there is a lot to choose from. (Speaking of which, man that Grandy site is hard to navigate).

1/07/2006

Day 7

See day 6. I added some notes about the Museo paper after it dried.

1/06/2006

Got 'em

Received the order. The pictures are fabulous and better than we could have expected. We love them. Thank you so much!

- T.W.

Ah, music to my nicotine-starved ears.

Qty Title Price Print Size Matte Size Type
1 Flat Iron, Tilted $25 5 x 7 8 x 10 Open Edition
1 Sax Player $25 5 x 7 8 x 10 Open Edition
1 Promenade $25 5 x 7 8 x 10 Open Edition
1 Chrysler Building, Storm $50 8 x 10 11 x 14 Limited Edition
1 Couple in Rain $25 5 x 7 8 x 10 Open Edition

I'm not sure what the purpose is of showing the actual order information other than that I never did that before and this is what the customer gets and other photographers often ask, "so what are people buying..."

This is a typical order. Some orders are for lots of the $25 prints (I've still got two of these types to get done) and some are for a couple of the larger prints, or for a mix of both sizes. Now going forward, at some point, I'm going to have to see if the market will bear say $30 a print for the smaller ones. And I will confess that I actually have a fondness for the smaller prints myself - although I know the world is going bigger with everything. It may go back to the days when I was studying the effect of different sized images and thought it was a great accomplishment to achieve an emotional effect from a small print. And let's face it - living in the typical urban crackerbox - those are the prints that are just now starting to make it up on my own walls.

Crane Museo Silver Rag

The Museo Silver Rag paper from Crane arrived today. I have just finished some prints.

I say, "wow."

The printable surface, and now I'm looking at it without any ink on it, has the look and feel of my old darkroom Gallerie fiber paper. It is really nice. I don't think I'm going to get jobs as a reviewer with words like, "nice." Okay, how about - sweet.

When I first printed with it, the suggestion was to use the Premium Semi-Gloss setting which is fine, but this paper is thicker and stiffer than Premium Semi-Gloss so there was some ink being picked up on the side where the paper curved up a little.

I went into the "Paper Config" screen and changed the paper thickness setting to: 15 (0.1 mm); and instead of "Auto" changed the Platen Gap to "Wide." Oh, and I gave it a little more time to dry between passes. In advanced b&w mode on the Epson 4800 you don't use - in fact you can't use - a profile. Let the driver do the work for you.

Anyway - one or all of those tweaks fixed the problem of ink catching on the right side of the paper edge.

It is difficult to quantify a "look." I'm just saying that this is the first thick, heavy cotton paper with an air-dried fiber darkroom look. Very beautiful. Definitely will end the "ripple" effect you get with lighter papers. Sweet.

What else can I tell you - it has been designed to work with the Photo Black cartridge. I didn't make any other changes in my printer settings. And when this paper comes out - it is what I will use.

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And give the paper time to dry. I'm looking at it the next morning - even better. I realize I'm using subjective words like, "better, nice etc." but can you describe a look that you like without simply comparing it to some known quality? Holding one of my best darkroom fiber prints next to the Museo Silver Rag print - under the light - I sure can tell one from the other. I can tell because the surfaces aren't exactly the same; because I know if I hold the inkjet print at a certain angle under the light I'm going to get a sheen that will spread out over the entire print that won't be as pronounced with the darkroom fiber print. And I can tell because the Museo paper has a cotton feel to the touch, at least the non-printable side.

But framed, under glass, not knowing one from the other - I could take a good guess. But the point is that the Silver Rag has an equally luxurious and rich feel to it.

Day 6

I'm not sure how much longer I should keep calling posts, Day 1, Day 2 etc. I think I might keep it going 'til day 14.

It's getting a little better all the time.

One thing when I didn't expect when I switched to the new computer -- some of my software seems way outdated - and I actually couldn't get Ultradev 4 to install properly under XP PRO. I'm sure there are a million people running UD 4 under XP Pro - but I no have luck. So I downloaded the TRY version of Dreamweaver 8 (I guess the whole Ultra Dev branding is over) - and it installed and runs no problem. Upgrade is $199. I'm sure I'll do it. Let's face it. I'm hooked.

I think there's one more piece of software to install - Quickbooks 2002 (yikes) that makes it sound old (which is exactly what they want you to think) - but if it installs and works, I'll stick with it.

But it is funny how much software / plug-ins / etcetera I am dependent on that I could never put on a list beforehand.

Oh - and Craig - I'll be honest with you and Barrett -- I haven't even been following your conversation about printers. I think you got a new one and Barrett got a new one - but whether they're the same or not - I have no idea. But whatever you ended up with - I guess you went against the 2400.

Also - drive-wise - let's put it this way: the striped raid drive is used for working on "production" pieces. The external drives are used to either backup, or off-load stuff that isn't in "production." So for example - the digital shots are all available on the external drives. If I am working on one it might get copied over to the RAID DRIVES and then if it goes into production, meaning it's for sale, it stays on the RAID drive.

Same idea for scanned negatives. They start off on the external drive, and some of them make it to the RAID DRIVE for processing. The external drives also act as a backup for the PRODUCTION FILES as well as original scans. In other words, things are faster on RAID but anything that involved labor is backed up and that includes just pure scanning.

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Oh, and P.S. - this thing is now truly mult-tasking, so while some huge copy is going on - or some especially intensive PS operation, I was easily able to load Dreamweaver and do some coding work, get my mail, and write this bit.

P.P.S. The fan is working fine. I checked the temperature of the CPU this morning (it shows up in BIOS) and it was 32C. Spoke with the tech at MicroVelocity and he said that was very cool indeed; especially since CPU was left on for 24 hours straight.

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I know - your eyes glaze over with all this tech. crap - but I think that knowing (or being mildly interested) in this stuff is a big part of the photography biz these days and let's face it - if you can't do anything creative (which I'm not doing lately) then you can always fall back on the right-brain agenda (or is it the left-brain) - I always get the hemispheres confused.

1/05/2006

Cemetery Walk


I still say - not that anyone is arguing with me - that the best cemeteries can be found in Paris. Oh - not fair because the best living can be found there as well. Maybe we can judge a place by how well it treats the dead. Not just the kings and queens - but the regular run-of-the-mill dead.

Day 5

6:33 p.m.

So it's taken me about one day to setup and re-install most everything and it is worth it. Example, one operation in Photoshop that had been taking between 15 & 20 minutes to complete now takes about 45 seconds. I've spoken with the guy at Velocity Micro and told him how I attached the fan; and he advised me to leave the machine on all night; and he would call me in the morning to help me check the pc's temperature. Nice guy. If it isn't right, they'll have to send over a technician to change the heat sink and the fan. He also mentioned that the fan I had received was actually an upgrade they threw in.

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Lewis & Clark didn't need to write in reverse order. I am definitely going to buy something like Ghost so that I have a backup of the main drive with all the stuff installed. The main hang-up right now is finding all the serial numbers for stuff I use, i.e. plug-ins et. cetera. The external drive enclosure has turned out to be very useful as I just popped out the drives from the old p.c. and popped them (like toast) into the enclosure to get stuff I needed. I think I'm going to need one more enclosure before this journey is over. But the drivers I had to look for. The passwords, the serial numbers -- egads and zooks. But the pc is humming along now with a nice blue light shining from the fan like a full moon over the Missouri.

I don't know the purpose, other than cosmetics of the blue fan light - unless it's to zap those darned mosquites. The biggest problem the Lewis & Clark expedition have had so far are:
Malaria (though they didn't call it that); and various veneral diseases (which they all had). They didn't know the cause of the former being those pesky mosquites; and I'm not sure whether they knew the 'cause of the 2nd disease, though they must have had some idea.
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After a sleepless night, I woke up at 5 a.m. to take another look at the new PC. I was thinking of Lewis and Clark and all the troubles they went through to cross into the unknown and I thought I could take a lesson from Lewis and attempt to make the repairs, or at least understand the problem with the new technology.

I turned the newe p.c. on it's side and studyied the problem. The fan, which I think should have been attached with 4 screws, didn't have any screws to hold it in, and one screw was rattling around. I found that screw and was able to reattach the fan to the heate sinke & cetera. (If you've ever read 18th century blogs, you'll see the phrase & cetera a lot, along with & c.)

I'm not sure that either Lewis or Clark could spell the other guys' name the same way twice.

Anyway, I found a second screw and so the fan is attached with two screws (until I can find 2 more) and is fine.

Other observations: the case is okay, but not as easy to keep clean as the old Dell case; plus this one is not the easy-open version. I could have gotten the easy-open version but it was a few dollars more.

The inside of this is just very nicely wired. Easier to get to things than with the Dell. Since everything is made from off-the-shelf stuff, you get all the extras from the off-the-shelf pieces which may be useful at some point.

As far as how fast or slow the new pc is - I don't have any idea yet. I still need to pull some hard drives and cards from the old pc and put them into the new one; then drivers, photoshop & cetera.

As far as day five without cigs go - although the night was weird and I felt sort of wide awake - I did wake this morning feeling somewhat normal for the first time since stopping. Somewhat normal means that I didn't feel like I had to hold onto the handrail going down the stairs, and the thought of attacking the computer setup didn't send me into a frenzy.

Given that I stopped on New Years Day Morning - there must be others out there who are going through the exact same thing. Stay with it if you can.

1/04/2006

Day 4

MORE FROM DAY FOUR

VELOCITY MICRO PC ARRIVED. Set it up. Turned it on. and voila, heard some tinkling sound inside case, and then long and short beeps and nothing on the screen.

So I opened the case and it seems that the CPU Fan has detatched from the heat sink and is dangling. It isn't attached (or wasn't attached) by screws but by some little plastic things, one of which melted. So I spent awhile trying to get the fan re-attached, but given the state of my nerves - gave up and ate some bits of a brownie. Then called MicroVelocity and couldn't get through (waited 10 minutes). The repeating message was especially annoying because there would be this pause and you think they're going to pick up, but no. It just starts all over again.

Anyway - the box - except for the fan problem - looks cleanly-wired inside. I just need to figure out how to get the fan re-attached. Will tackle that tomorrow. If I can't figure it out, will call them again.

Today really seemed endless.

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Under the Clocks

Day four has been the worst so far; probably because I'm sort of stuck in the house waiting for the new PC to be delivered. I need to walk off the anger that surfaces when I'm going cold turkey. Anyway - for those of you who have never been addicted to something - it isn't so bad to kick the habit - if you can learn to enjoy suffering. You would be amazed at all the weird stuff that happens to you when you give up the nicotine, and not always the same.

Last time I quit - my sense of direction just disappeared and I got lost driving out to New Jersey (though that can happen any time to any New Yorker).

This time, my right eye seems itchy. I kid you not. And that's my shootin' eye. Also the eye I wear a contact lens in fer shootin'. It's all connected up somehow - but not sure how. Oh, and if you think my spelling is bad (which it is) read the Lewis and Clark journals. It seems that even educated men in 1807-ish could spell any word however they wished:

"Weve spottid the hornbloewing toortle fer the fifthe tyme and this beste mesures 7.4 inches whide."

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Has anyone ever used any of those Epson printer tips that flash by in their modal driver window while printing? You know the ones I mean (there's a little yellow light bulb with little exclamation accents popping out and they flash by as you are actually printing puporting to assist you)

TIP: Try cleaning the print heads to remove banding problems.

TIP: For best results, match paper with the correct media setting.

TIP: Paper should be loaded printable side down when using the paper tray.

TIP: If you don't know any of the above, then you had better give back your printer because you don't stand a chance.

TIP: This TIP was written by an automated help program named HALSKY and has not helped anybody yet. These tips are copyright Epson Corporation and are there to give the illusion of help - not to actually help anyone. Any help received by these tips are strictly accidental.

1/03/2006

Day 3

"If a nicotine user remains 100% nicotine free for just 72 hours they'll likely begin to notice the underlying current of recovery anxieties begin easing off as their brain's neurons begin bathing in nicotine-free oxygen rich blood serum and the brain's sensitivity adjustments begin bearing fruit. Although our quickly healing body is now 100% nicotine free and most of the normal symptoms of adjustment have reached their peak, it will take 10 days to two weeks before our mind and body become fully accustomed to functioning with the absence of nicotine and many of the other 4,000+ chemicals present in each burning cigarette. "

In other words, I'm in "rote mode." Printing, packaging, and thinking about cardboard. Not taking on anything that requires concentration or that might produce aggravation. Tomorrow the new P.C. should arrive.

Other stuff: the Forum (Cafe Noir) is on its last legs. For some reason the idea of sharing interesting thoughts between photographers in the forum wasn't a big hit. I believe the reasons were: there was a feeling of a more formal threshold for posting than there is in the blog. i.e. you can put up just about anything here as a comment but in the forum it feels like you must have a more serious motivation to start a new topic... (maybe not, but I suspect there is some truth to this).

Unlike other forums, you needed to qualify to be able to "express yourself." Nobody wants to go through that to ask what they imagine will be a quick question. Of course, it's those quick questions that usually go on for years.

And last but not least, I didn't keep it "primed." Somebody, whether the entity is a blog or a forum needs to keep the energy going and I abandoned the forum after a while. Not only did I abandon it, but I stuck it under the Blog Dropdown (and expecting people to find it on a submenu is pronouncing is just about the same as pronouncing it dead.)

I could open it up so that anyone can write anything -but don't see any point to recreating the wheel.

1/02/2006

Day 2

Day 2 of turning over a new leaf and giving up bad habits and if I start to snap at you or anyone - give me until day 7 or so to get over it. Not a good idea to give up so many vices at one time; you should only get rid of one vice at a time; but nonetheless let's toss them all overboard and see what happens.

What happens is that my nerves get frayed; my back gets tight; my patience wanes; my throat constricts; my span of attention contracts. Oh, what a way to go. Death by denial. I know you have your vices and resolutions against them, and I know that by day two or three of the new year you are slipping back into them.

"Turning over a new leaf," is a phrase that should be updated anyway. Not too many farmers in this land anymore who know what turning over a new leaf is. Today I would say, "putting in a new motherboard."

That's not good.

Oh, I have it. This year I'm going to get rid of my bad habits and completely defragment my drives.

That ain't no good. My mind wants to find a contemporary metaphor for turning over a new leaf but I can't come up with it. You'd think for it to be contemporary it would have something to do with technology - maybe not. This year we're going to stop unlawful wiretaps. No, not all at once, but we'll try and turn over a new leaflet.

Well, whatever you have resolved to do, or not to do - thinking that it would make your or someone else's life better - good night and good luck.