Not bad. Last night, was the first time since I stopped smoking that I slept soundly through the night. I think the physical part is over and now the psychological cravings kick in. The physical withdrawal, as annoying as it is - has always been the easiest part since it is just being able to endure a lot of pain, which I can do. The more difficult part is when you've forgotten about all the pain you went through - and something emotional sets you off - and you feel like - oh what the hell - I just need one. One cigarette will help me so much.
Now that craving has a time and life of it's own. Usually it last for a few minutes - though if you don't look at your watch you think it's longer than that. But those cravings can go on for days and days and that's when it gets tough.
I haven't run into them yet - but I know that I will. They are always around the corner. Talk to just about any ex-smoker and ask if there aren't times - decades later when some situation makes them think about reaching for a cigarette. That's when it gets real dangerous.
Be that all as it is. I got a lot done this month. Finally got my matting supplies and storage organized by buying a bureau and getting pre-cut mats. My packaging system costs a little bit more, but is much quicker for me. I got out four orders yesterday morning which is a new land speed record for me.
New p.c. and backup system is working well. I even upgraded from Quickbooks 2002 to the current version and did a bunch of things to make entering sales quicker. Compared sales year-to-date this year with year-to-date last year and they've been three times as much.
In other words, I've turned my apartment into a production line. And even bought a new rug and curtains. Anyway - very productive month. My charge card is getting up near its limit - but I have the stuff I need to run the business for another year and my theory is that every year I stay in business brings me one step closer to financial solvency - or is it bankruptcy? I get the two confused sometimes.
2 comments:
A good friend quit a three pack a day habit after 30 years and switched to the gum. Now he's been cigarette free for over a year and he's hooked on the gum. You're doing real well...
I know the fact that I haven't smoked a cigar since new year's eve, is nothing compared to your challenge, but after every big meal, I want one real bad...
I have this suspicion that the gum, the spray, the patch etc. are all made by the cigarette companies. i.e. that there is this massive plot going on so that someone wins either way.
One thing I've noticed is that none of the nicotine replacement companies will give you statistics about how many people a) get re-addicted to their product and b) are able to quit for any length of time using their product.
Paranoia is one of the diseases I don't suffer from - but in this case I do think that someone should force the nicotine replacement companies to publish their success /failure rates.
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